***Awakened Aphrodite & womb of potential***

so here above is my Illustration Friday:The blues

I have many other ideas, I had a funny idea well just me laugh( cheap humour)
The blues sisters ^_^
with crazy nuns making great blues( an Echo to my love sébastien's funny graphic illustration)Seb's blog
Go check and laugh and put a nice comment to him ^_^if you enjoy his work ^_^

so mine is a little girl an epitomy of Empathy.
She is carrying the pain of the world on her frail wings.
her big heart bleeds.
so it's Blue for Red.
Peace for all this violence.

I had in mind the Free Burma campaign and petition of course.



But I am someone who don't feel it's so right to suddenly wake up and fight for a cause, unite, do your little two cents to show you care.
I feel it's kind of cheap
yeah I may sound cynical but let me explain.
In fact I just remember there is not just Burma that is suffering now!
It's just Because fucking news on Tv talk about it all the time.

I mean we don't talk each day about all women who are rapped killed or absuded by the ir husband or strangers in the streets.
We don't talk about all the children in the world who are suffering each day, with sexual tourism because they have to work to get money to get food etc etc

so my work is to spread peace and empathy on each kind of red violence and pain.
I'm sometimes a bit hopeless or too realistic I don't know how to put it but oh well
I do not believe in Universal Peace.
I think we have to bear in mind there will always be violence and cruelty for free or not but that shouldn't prevent us from doing a little gesture, giving a little, uniting, spreading the positive thinking and making a little change happen, even how tiny it may be.

I also think that's why we have to bear in mind that we have to begin Peace Inside us and in Our Home to be totally real and sincere in our giving.

I say so because I remember my self hatred in the Past and the fact I loved lost souls and tried to save them, I couldn't collect all the pieces of my broken self but I pretended I could help others?
Maybe I did nice things of course but I am sorry for the way I had been so cruel to myself and for having abandonned myself oh so many times mostly because of rejections and the way people looked at me, the way boys left me all the time :(((((
(kidding I am quite healed from that mwhahahahaahh ;oP)

Tant pis pour eux,tant mieux pour moi ^____^(kidding)

Now I want to catch upon all questions by Mich
Here virtual circle

Because I love this blog of spiritual souls and soul searching/analyzing:)

How are you honouring yourself?

We are the mirror, as well as the face in it.
We are tasting the taste of eternity this minute.
We are pain and what cures pain.
We are the sweet cold water and the jar that pours. Soul of the world, no life, nor world remain,
no beautiful women and men longing.
Only this ancient love circling the holy black stone of nothing.
Where the lover is the loved, the horizon and everything within it.
Rumi

"The path into Awakened Aphrodite’s embrace entails constant discernment, for She embodies the truth of real love.

No longer does She confuse mere seduction, which is fear-based, with love, which knows no fear.

Loving and kind to all women and men, She refuses to perpetuate the competitive and jealous ways of others.

She is at home in Her physical body and grateful for the gift of life. She shares this joy with all around Her. She attracts many things to herself, yet knows the path of discrimination.

Take time for yourself. Sleep when you need to, vacation and play when it is appropriate. Do not overwork or bury yourself in competitive work habits.

Awakened Aphrodite accepts life.

Live life fully. Above all else, do not be afraid to love completely and honestly. Honour thyself and love will return one thousand times over."(words by Mich)

This is oh so true.
I have arrived to a path of being a lot more aware of what LOVE is, true love, not just the couple, the love in everything everyone that can have different forms.

I am honouring myself with so many things.
I think this year I have been closer to my inner self than ever
I have found that balance and comfort in taking care of myself loving myself without being selfish or just self centered.
I am at peace with that really!

I am honouring myself playing with my inner Fae Child and letting her pop anytime she feels like it.
I know there is a time for work and a time to play:)
I balance this very well and of course I am very lucky to be a full time artist( in spite of the lack of money it implies ahah)because I can play working ahhaha ;);)


I'm honouring myself with being the real me always not denying not hiding and enjoying to give pieces of me here and there.
I have time for me and time for my beloved ones time for art/work, time for passion,time for fun time for humanity time for others .

I am respecting myself truly and am accepting any kind of rejections.
I don't mind being hated for me.
It hurts a second because you're emotional but then it doesn't kill.

I m quite glad of the freedom I give to myself, this allowing of freedom of being me of saying stupid things of being silly of maybe looking ridiculous weird or plain, all this makes me feel so alive and fearless.
For I know no matter what I'll be loved as I love and pour my soul.



How shall I begin my song
in the blue night that is setting?
In the great night
my heart will go out;
toward me the darkness comes, rattling;
in the great night my heart will go out.
Papago Medicine Woman Chant


How are you stepping out of the norm and opening yourself to new opportunities?


that second question by Mich is very interesting and synchro again.
I'm greatly evolving according to those questions.
Because since this summer I have opened many New doors to potentials to possibilites and of course to freedom of being the complete me.

It's very empowering in a way, I do feel stronger and have grown a better self confidence.
Oh I'm still very shy and do doubt my work now and then of course but I have a softer look on everything I do/I am.

so I'm definetly stepping out of the norm with my thinking, freedom of speech, frankness and honesty.
My pictures too are out of the norm,outsider works, especially the retouched one/artworks:













That last picture is a bit off limits ^_^
it's called cosmic fuck

yeah maybe for English speaking people it must sound rude or violent I don't know,but to me it really belongs to a poetical imagery of sensuality.
Here is the poem that goes along:-)


Des étoiles pleins les yeux qui léchent nos coeurs amoureux
Des comètes pleines d'un Feu indéchiffrable et mystérieux
Tes lèvres déposent un baiser aux portes des fleurs d'une autre galaxie
Le même écho encore et encore
Un espace immense où notre Ivresse s'étale
Aucun Trou noir ne nous aspirent
Nous les remplissons de jus de supernova
Les astres tournoient
Tout scintille pour toi et moi
L'infini existe dans ce mélange cosmique
Bien au dessus de la voûte céleste nous flottons
Tu respires au plus profond de mon âme
Larmes de nébuleuse dans nos regards déchirés
D'Amour et d'euphorie
Notre constellation se profilent en "Je t'aime"'s insondables
Ta voix lactée pétillent d'un Amour Divin
Mystique attachement des lianes de nos bras
O mon si doux cosmique émoi
******************************************

Eyes filled with Stars that lick our hearts in Love
Comets full of an undecipherable and mysterious Fire
Your lips offer a kiss to the Doors of flowers from another galaxy
The same Echo again & Again
An Immense Space where we spread Dimentia(intoxication?)
No black hole will swallow us
we fill them with supernova Juice
The asters twirl
Everything twinkles for you and I
Infinite does exist in this cosmic mix
We're floating far above the celestial canopy
You breathe in the innermost depths of my Soul
Nebula tears in our eyes
Torn with Love & Euphoria
Our constellation is outlined by unphathomable ' I love you(s)"
Your milky way sparkles with a Divine Adoration
Mystic attachment of the lianas of our arms
O my so sweet Cosmic agitation

written and translated by me,crappy translation but no time :P



Now here are my latest art squared( 14x14cm)






all in small click on them to see bigger


and here is my last painting, titled: To my Blessed Ones

to thank them deeply for existing because we are truly made of our loved ones and the world the univers would never be with the same without them that you can not imagine how life was or could be without them.
my Blessed Ones are of course My family ( except alexis), my parents that I adore( my father loves to see this when I write it soo ^_^Dad this is for you: I love you ^-^and you'd better shake yourself to do a painting or collage soon with long time bought canvas that's gonna collect some dust :p) mwahahhaha
my brother François, my sister Mélanie, my darling sébastien, my lovely furry creature Takun( yes he belongs to the Family) etc and of course the Family of the heart, the family of the mind and the family of the soul.
You know who you are and I heart you dearly, blessed be!

Yay it's done! wow that was a long entry, won't do that everyday oh my! but then you can have a small hints of all the things I do and how crazy busy my life is :) but also and above it all you can see how fine I do feel.

Hey Melody Dawn Mull I am thinking of you, hope you got my postcard by now,miss you dear!hope you're ok.

If Emergency

the little stain on the nose is not on the painting, it is because of my scanner.

This time, like all times, is a very good one, if we but know what to do with it.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

“Time is free, but it's priceless. You can't
own it, but you can use it. You can't keep
it, but you can spend it. Once you've lost it
you can never get it back.”
Harvey Mackay

Come out of the circle of time
And into the circle of love.

Rumi

The strange strangeness of existence

Getting to know you day, soul searching


I would have a lot to write, but it's getting late, I will reply to my own questions(yes indeed;)tomorrow if I can:)
you can have look to the link above and share your answers with me



Garden of Infatuations.

And my new series: The faery Knowledge collection.

I had this in mind for a while but never began it.
I will see how it goes.
Maybe I will make 10 of them or 100 ?
we'll see what the faeries have to teach me;)and you:)

no really it's not teaching,they come and go and they share their own philosophies.
sometimes it's sticky honey we can not really apply in our daily life at some moment.
But it's always poetic and lovely sayings that warm up the heart and I love it!
well parts of me love it, there is still the dark grumpy one who says " hey you H.honey where is the gloom? where is the darkness? I dont feel home here in these rainbow lands"









and here is my Illustration Friday: Missing
I titled it: Lacuna
beautiful word that could be a metaphore for a lot of things...

there is a lot in this painting,emotions,soul sharing,secrets,honesty and also a lot of unsaid.
It can be interpreted different ways and of course I am always glad when people can relate to my work and understand or remember pieces of them through my paintings.


***Many blessings, sweet dreams***

: Spiritual growth: Doors and windows

On wednesday I was the host for the getting to know you day,here was the questions I asked everyone & my answers to them:)
feel free to share your answers with me:)



1)which are the latest doors in your mind, your world, you had to close, to feel safe, to stop bearing grudges, to just learn to say goodbye and to move on?


I think the latest doors I have closed was the grudge one.
I have been so betrayed and hurt by soul sisters I loved so much.
some of them I really loved with passion to be honest.
the hurt is as big as the love you feel.

I had to heal. but in the meantime I grow weary of friendship, I could not trust and love again.
then with thinking and focusing on the beauty on what I had to give on what I really wanted, I finally mend the pieces in me.
I have forgived.
I have told myself it was not that bad to have trust, to have given to person who did not saw how important and rare it all was, nevermind...

I am very happy now I have closed these doors.
I am very glad I have decided to turn the page and begin new ones:)

I think it is true, it's always better after the hurt, you really can meet the souls you want to share with ^_^
I am lucky for it and I enjoy this feeling, this awareness:)

I have also closed the doors of guilt. well still trying to. it sometimes opens again against my will;)
I am trying to close this door that make me think this cannot work with this, you can't be this and that!
people won't love you if they know!
How can you be/behave this way?

I close these doors, I free my mind and move on. If there is only one life I want to live it deeply and not stop or block myself.
sometimes we judge ourselves, we think this is not right,we think too much of consequences, risks taken and if it will be worth it.
I want to think differently.
I just want to live,experience,share,and sip the beauty of being alive:)

and nevermind if I'll be judged and seen wrongly, and misinterpreted and reduced to things I can do sometimes, feel, say etc

we are more than what we do , we have many personas, we are always and never the same and this chameleons is pleasant, it breaks routine, it opens door for me, it is a part of inspiration,discovering always,pushing limits
never hurting myself neither anyone:)

I think we all do judge others and their attitudes or behaviours way too quickly just because they can be different.
this is not fair, however lame or pathetic you think they can appear look be, they are more than this!
I believe in what's under our mistakes.faults.flaws.breaks.and so forth:)




2) do you believe in Hellen keller's famous quote (that I love)
that when a door closes another one opens and how did it showed in your life? any stories to tell?think about it;)


well sometimes yes sometimes no, but it depends on my mood, when I'm grumpy and so sad I can't see things clear of course.

but I always try my best to wait and see, be patient
Because it's all in this, Patience's hands

I am someone who loves Hopes.
I think now what matters is not to dwell before the closed doors
it is to accept and go on our journey, there are several paths to choose & we're always fine,blessed and free when we carry our home inside our soul/heart.


4)Sometimes all doors are closed, but there are Window
the third eyes is the biggest window of our mind.
How do you escape this way? how do you heal travelling by that window?
what are the thoughts that appeases you when all doors are closed in your life on your path?


My third eyes helps me a lot to visualize things , to see things in a better view.
I have a lot of spiritual trips, without drugs rest assured mwahahhahahhahha ^___^
I am not such a Hippie ;)

I escape of course through meditation,yoga , art and writing.

I am a lucky person because I have this deep wide potential to create, to imagine!
I am very blessed and grateful to be able to hear the muses and receive messages from far far away realms;)

When I want to heal something in me, I visualyze my inner room, my haven, I find this place within where I can feel safe, and remember all the beauty , the reasons to live again and not give up.


4)Eyes are often seen as the windows of the souls? would you agree?
do you feel people's soul this way? is the gaze something important to you?
do you feel you're an open book when someone reads in your eyes?

I don't know. I love trusting my intuition:)
I love eyes
I think it's a beautiful body part. it's so mysterious, saying so much still hiding so much.
I think my love sebastien can read in my eyes, my mother too maybe my father too, but that's all.
Not that I feel myself being a mysterious woman, but I'm a bit cold and aloof in general with people in society so I'm not sure they can read much but sybilline enigmas;)
I also used to feel uninteresting,dumb and so forth because of being so distant,mute and the transparent girl in the corner of the room ah!




5) tell me about the door you need to close and open right now? think. look around. your goals. your regrets. your anger.memories.anything.make peace with yourself.

right now?
denial door.stress door.
off with that!

I am me, I am the way I am, take it or leave I won't change, and nevermind if I disapoint some people.

I have to close the door of stress because it wont help me with my goals, I have to stop doubting too to continue working on my business project!
it s such a lot of work!

I want to open some doors I won't name, yes me mysterious ^___^
and I also am impatient to open the door of my new art studio, my new apartment, my new life,my new realer work life!
Bring it on bring it on!!!!

My latest painting:" I don't know You"
24x32 cm on watercolor paper.







I got a lot of mails this week, was so happy because last week I was feeling very lonely!
Thank you so much to Violet, Maria,Chantal,Dawn and Valerie for their letters and packages and postcards:)
I love love love surprises ^______^

I have made an art trade with Valerie Sokol a very nice and open minded fairy artist:)
she was sweet enough to agree for a trade with me and I received one of her lovely fairy match box, something to take like a lucky charm,unique kind of work:)

so friends, go watch her work and support her art,say hello:) if you like it:)
it's also very pretty as a gift for a special friend who needs some fairy dust ;)

Valerie's shop at etsy
she also makes lovely cards:)

I'm ten years old again ^_^

so this week I have received my art trade with Helene Geraud la fée who creates magical fairy wands, heart trees,wands in pot like a plant for wishes;) lovely brooches and pockets


I was so spoiled as she added surprises in her amazing package ^___^
I got lovely brooches you can see at her blog and a lovely violet pocket.


She also offered me things to use in my art woooh oooh,it was xmas in summer:)
I feel oh so lucky to have had this opportunity to come across her artsy soul :)
but I dont say so to be envied or something I just want to share my bliss with you ^_^


I think that picture is my new fav :-)
I love love love whiteness purity, enchantement of elvish lands ;);)





voilà!
so now I bet some of you will want a wand:-)
I am never into making advertisement for others but it's 59 euros and definitly worth the price :-)
I think it's an amazing gift for a little girl, something precious and unique!
but for a big children like us all friends it's even better, one of the best gift, because it makes you feel back in touch with the fae child inside you, it makes you feel you're ten years old again, it's wonderful:-)

I am tidying and changing the whole bedroom, putting the bed in another place etc, to make a change, to start my new life even more, though we might move this year but still not sure when...

went for shopping for food this week and could not resist to show you my fruits basket:)



because I have read about healthy diet of tribes in foreign countries, who lived old and didn't have any serious disease, which shows that an healthy diet is the best ever
eat fruits and veggies my friends!
yes I have also bought cucumber, tomatoes and carots, but could not put everything in the basket;)
it's seb that is going to be happy ^_^
no he did eat some veggies too:-)

Hey Chantal, thank you so much for the beautiful Karyn Gartel card, I love it!thank you for sharing your joy, I so understand because she is a great artist, and I love it when she makes it simple, she opens new horizons:)
thank you for your kind advice and reminders!


latest artworks


nothing amazing but I have spent lots of time on it and then I was not completely satisfied, it happens, but it s ok:)

It's made with a picture of she who flies
I remembered wanting to make art with her picture since a while and so now it's done
it talks about self discovery
why then I did not take a pic of me?
well first because I made it for her and also because I wanted to enlarge this to self discovery in general
to tell others there is no age to begin introspection and getting to know our deep self
it s never to late to be in touch with our spiritual path and grow,learn, evolve...
in the pebble it is written "through"

reminded me alanis songs
the only way out is through...
because sometimes we get frustrated, we feel not enough and we want a quick fix, we dont want to get through that journey of self discovery through our worries, doubts, impatience etc
we can not really healt and get to make peace with our two sides if we dont get through it
I loved that song because I have also lived all that alanis talks about, I m feeling much better now, but it's beautiful to see we're not alone in the way we've evolved suffered, learnt and so forth



title: You're alive! Celebrate!
it s about 21x20cm and it's available.

Ok what did I forget? I am in a hurry so forgive me the quick writing so random ;)
ahah
I went to the hair dresser with my love sebastien



played a little with photoshop to make childish cute digital art

again nothing amazing, but in this the most important is that I enjoy myself :-)

My H list( not sure if that was the last letter I was at, but nevermind, I am so forgetful wonder if I will arrive until z ;)

1)honesty, very important, I feel dirty and uncomfortable when I am not completely honest...I think a life without honesty especially to oneself is full of sadness, so tragic

2)Hopscotch love love the word and the game, it's also in a song by bel canto, how much I love bel canto

3)haven, the room inside my soul where I can close my eyes and feel safe

4)hurt, a beautiful word, for the sound, but of course it's sad to feel it...yet hurt always inspired me...maybe was it a way to fight it? to turn it into beauty and creativity?

5)hecate, love this goddess of the Moon, of insanity and of the underworld...because of the passion behind it

6)hierarchy, eeeeeeek no more comment :-)

7)hands , love them very much, helping hands, touching hands, holding hands in sweet or tough times...too bad I still can not draw them that well

8)hippie chic, being gypsy and elegant ;)

9)hypocrisy, well what could be said about this?too bad/sad for them...

10)hyperboles, loves them, love to exagerrate;)

11)hysteric, me when I see a furry spider :D or any kind of black unidentified insects:oP

12)higher understanding: learning, teaching ,sharing,connecting with the unseen world, with God/Goddess,helping myself and others...

I & J list...yes why not :o)
1)Illusion
2)Intense
3)Illustrator, I want to become one...I am one already but haven t been published or chosen yet for it
4)Imagination, what would life be without?
5)Innamoramento :-) beautiful magical
6)Inspire
7)Inside
8)Inner garden


1)Jealousy, something interesting to analyze and decipher why we could feel that way?
2)juice, like fruit juices, I love that so much!
3)judgement...silly, waste of time, who are we to judge, and yet I know I have been judgemental many times...silly human beings we can be :o)
4)Jade, the name the stone, pretty
5)jaded, love the word, but not the mood
6)jail, sometimes we create our own alas...and we have the key to set ourselves free
7)jacuzzi, wish I had one but it's my luxury drawn side:) I think and forget,it s allowed to dream:)
8)jewel, love them! since I am 3 years old, have pictures,it s so funny, I used to wear two different ear rings;) so cute, I was already an original ;) ahah
9)joke, enjoy people who joke, who are funny,lively,entertaining:-)
I like when people dont take themselves seriously,and though it does not show here, because maybe I'm more cerebral than a joker, I really can be funny, well at least I make my father & sebastien laugh oh and myself quite a few times ;)
10)joy, beautiful name and feeling evanescent though
11)junkie, supposed former soul infatuation junkie ;)(reference to alanis album)
12)June, I think it's a cute name, months are weird as name but june and april are very cute:-)
though in France people would not pronounce it beautiful so I wont choose these names;)
13)japanese marble tree!
14) japanese fruitsy fashion
15)japanese manga, cute stuff, japanime etc, seb is hooked on these things:) we'll have to visit japan one day:)
16)Jen, of course...because it might be a very popular name in the world especially in the usa, but there is only one Jen in my soul garden:)I heart you dear;)

The magic of True friendship

so lately I'm feeling mellow, very sweet,smiling,blessed





so this one is inspired by the beautiful quote by anais nin:)
I so love it!the quote not the painting ;oP

It is just so true:)
each of my friend has made me grow and walk through new wordls inside of me, they create garden full of flower of their thoughts, sunbeams of their kindness and so forth ^_^

I am lucky to know you!









that one is for Rejection theme of Illustration Friday

he white writing on the right says:

" Can you hear me in all the songs you sing with them Am I special to you, will you plant a Flower of time in the forest of my heart am I unique to you? will you share a path just for us on our spiritual journey because I want this to be one of a kind(...)"

E List:

1)Ethereality: mine is my saviour it's made of imagination,wonders,emotions,passion and rivers of sugar and blissful flowers***

2)Eerie, love the word...the atmosphere...

3)Epiphany, revelation ,seeing the Light deeply,feeling the meaning of everything, understanding this life, this world,our reasons to be there...love Epiphanies!

4)Eidolon, such a lovely word, aren't they cute, inspiring for poetry?

5)electric... like that song by An pierlé, friends are electric...isn't it some circuit of energies that are traveling times,space and everything from soul to soul?

6)ellipse...not saying not showing... all in the sweetness of the unsaid ;)such a tortured delight (smiles)

7)Embrace, the hug and the act of accepting, loving things and persons as they are.

8)Embryo, like the word, the fascination for this unknown, it s kinda like death, we don't know this pre-life, we can t really recall but in dream or sensation,I would like to be able to draw embryo...I have many ideas of paintings for it, but if you look at the hands in the previous painting, sighs I still have a lot to learn!
But Goddess hands are so difficult to draw!!!!

well maybe I'll end up this list tomorrow, as now I will have some fun time (well not so much,it s sad film) we're going to watch Pompoko ^__^

I'll tell if it's worth watching, I am sure it is good & full of pretty sentiments :)

you owe me nothing in return

it all begun by a kind of abstract painting I ruined and so out of anger I tear the canvas and thought hum this resists me, ok, I won't give in!

and so with the ruined canvas I decided to make an assemblage:)

wish I time to write more & share thoughts...anyways I'm sending smiles***

Just having thoughts of Hecate...

This is my first page in my new art jrnl but as I've ruined the two other pages I am not even sure if I will go on.
I'm way too moody. I also think I'm too busy to do everything, to really find time for myself.

I need some Light.





so I've been working in my art journal and seeing the face looking more like crappy manga girls, I was like huh??? o____O wtf

felt frustrations as usual. I know I shouldn't do what I think I should do, but do what is true to my heart,what gives me pleasure

I've felt this discomfort of being me sometimes
that's why I created this piece of my vision of Hecate,being the queen of Hell and darkness( and more)hating her inside Darkness.
Like pieces of me hating this Dark roots that entangle my soul.sometimes I feel I can't walk through this.

there would be more to say about this piece but she speaks gently (which is paradoxical) about this sadness of hating her own,she is unravelling the truth...and there is another me singing" who is this terrorist?"(wink to the redhead doll)

I was thinking "when are you gonna love yourself my Hecate? I know it's hard to swim in the sea of extremes, I know we don't always feel safe in this skin, I know how hard it is some days to be our own & accept this as a whole...
is there more Passion in hatred? does your hatred turns into another fire,can this rescue you?

I am satisfied about the emotions in her face but not much in the color of her skin, I wish I could make paler women.
I love wan faces.dollish.porcelain hearts.not that breakable in spite of their cracks(breaches).that could be a sweet feminist ellipse;)

so yes my Hecate hides her tears, she has to show her strenght,she is the great sorceress...
She has tried to hep Demeter find Persephone and her Empathy was big,now she just can't bear to be sided.
she wonders if this is Life.
To be profoundly happy and profoundly sad in two distinct parts of our life?

Because it is True, Life can be marvelous when you bend on a side, but it's also awful?
are we blind?
Do we learn to be blind and get used to this so we can enjoy our journey?

People who don't want to talk and over think it, just say "c'est la vie"
let's shorten things we can't understand by this awful phrase.

How boring.

Well now I'm off to yoga to flee all these mental fluctuations ^_^