mardi 17 avril 2007
it's a cycle
for those who can't read,tired eyes( teasing you dears ^_^) it's written:
In the strawberry fields
where the demons dance & the fairy bleed
I weigh the abhorrable aura of another me
In the strawberry fields
drowning in the scarlet gashes
May the Goddess soon remind me
Seed Feed Bleed & that I should never stop loving me
this is a sort of poetic impro that came to me yesterday as I felt the weight of that word: isolation and not only isolation from the world,or friends,or others, but isolating my self of my self,compartimenting my colors, not embracing,mixing and helping things find a so called harmony, a unison...
anyways,I should work on that poem if I have some time,sincerely I adore writing,I miss it but I can be a creative octopus even if I want to,I try hard,but I also want to give to others, I can't just have fun on my own,I want to share,enjoying passions,thoughts and emotions with friends out there ^_^
so today as you can notice a slight change,yes I'm feeling better and smiling
I have been more sociable,almost friendly...still a big thick heavy wood doors with hidden thorn if you go there ;oP but I have talked a bit more,participate a bit more
ahah I still feel all these things are too schoolish for me,but well I get more confidence about my project:)
Tomorrow is a day off, which I will ENJOY with all my heart ^______^big kawaii kitty smiles ;)
painting, wait for me! I am coming right back in your loving arms!
four days without a brush in my hands!
feels like death,especially when you have ideas dancing, and screaming,shouting:
"me me me me!!!!!"
to be listened,heard,written down,deciphered,thought of deeper and chosen ahah :)
I am feeling excited:) happier:)
I want to thank you for the wonderful comments and emails I got, I want to thank each soul who takes of her time to write to me,to want to know me,question me,encouraging my art, or just reassuring me:)
it means so much to me
I am stubborn and always kind of skeptic about people in general but I know some souls out there have a big heart and a lovely understanding that I admire so much!
this kindness is inspiration!
I got a lovely art trade today by Tina ^_^loved it!
I had forgotten how wonderful and exciting it is to receive art from others!
I know I also decided to do art to trade,to get inspired and share with others!
so my next trade will be with you Pattie? are you in?^_^
I dont know ,maybe a small collage/painting 4x4 or whatever:) let me know what you prefer!
I cannot trade art everyday because of course if I want to live thanks to my art I just can't.
but once in a while with wonderful and lovely artist it is interesting and very enriching!
I'm rereading vickie enkoff's zine,creative choices( an inspirational guide) and I really love the positive thinking in it, it's reassuring,encouraging
if you make art,you can submit it to her zine! even articles,I guess she'll be glad:)
It's a very interesting zine,well written and very honest,real like the things I like.
We should support art zines more and more!
they are so inspiring!
I also recommend magpie magazine and not only because I've been published in the first issue but this girl is very creative and sweet!
I remember how amazed I was to know her age!
I wish I had had internet at the age of 17 I would have had been on my artist's path earlier!!
okay it's late,I have again lots more to say, thanks for your kind words,comments & emails again!
It's really wonderful to feel I might belong to some community me the terrible outcast ahahah( kidding and laughing at myself)
I recommend singing OUT LOUD in your car when you have to drive to go to job or stressful things, it's wonderfully relieving!
I must surely look crazy or like the girl ready for american idol( in France= la nouvelle star ;o) but Goddess I had so much fun singing this morning ,very energetizing( not sure of the word here ;oP)
Many blessings,enjoy your day,be sweet to yourself!
ps: today there was a little girl at the gym class she was the company of her grandmother I guess,yes my gym class is for all age from 16 to ... and this little girl made me smile like a foolish cheschire cat,it's really in my heart, I adore children, I can't wait to have my own!it's such a gentle and warm feeling,they are touching inspiration and their innocence and smiles just move me so much...