mardi 11 mars 2008
The Birthday Witch
Wild Side Stories
I know the last picture can look whatever it can look, I don't care!
Think what you want to think, it was playful, me dancing with that song in my mind:)))
kinda brazen( thoughts provocative(kidding:D)
I wanted to make something cuter more mischievous fae child, but I couldn't do anything as I wanted today...not easy.
I felt rather good in the morning and most of the day.
I tried to clean my brain and every meanders and corners left unsaid and unread for too long.
Take Everything I want you to
The Hills of Doors
and my two latest paintings.
so today was the day of my new birth.
I have to let go many things.
Die in many ways to rebirth in other ways.
I am the question.
And I am my Own answer.
"Dying is an art, like everything else. I do it exceptionally well. I do it so it feels like hell. I do it so it feels real. I guess you could say I've a call. "
It is the very first time of my life I am alone on that day.
But as lonely as I can feel. I was so very touched!
thank you all my friends for your kind words to me, your loveliness, all the comments, the letters, the gifts of the heart I receive!
Ah! truly you don't need to spend money on me, a little of sincere affection is enough:-)
I am really blessed to have you all in my life in spite of the miles.
Friendship has never had it's true beautiful meanings without you in my life, my Blessed Ones!
I love you, thank you being here, for bearing with my soul ,for accepting me,for never judging me too harsh, for loving me for me.
You are the greatest friends I have ever wanted, I am sorry I can not give time to each of you everyday, don't feel forsaken, I do care so much!
I cannot write all of your names, I will forget one and I hate these things, I am so tired and forgetful ahah:)
I am lucky to know you.that is all I know:)
I am feeling very grateful on my birtday and this generates a lot of positive thinking in me, I am coming back to life!
Thank you Ceridwen, what's next? bring it on:)
(got to make a picture about that goddess, we're in touch lately, have things to learn there)
and Darling Jen, this one is for you , I love you too pisces sister, thank you so much for existing in this Great Below:-)
I am feeling better, I feel the process of rebirth, slow but it is coming and my books and friends do help me see the Light with more trust and clarity.
I smile at my darkness and nonsense.